Unique Soul

Success Story

2008-02-03T21:22:04Z

I finished a major action today. Just to give you some examples of the wins...

I had the idea that anyone who was trying to help me is an enemy. Automatically. So when someone said, "I want to help" or "we're helping ..." my reaction was exactly what you would expect ... if the person was an enemy. It made it real difficult for me to accept help from anyone, and even more difficult to give help. I'm sure you can imagine the results of some normal communications. Now, I see them as humorous ... at the time, they were very upsetting.

Gone.

Did you know women are the perfect creatures? Every woman is absolute perfection. Did this cause me trouble? You bet. It's very difficult to properly place someone on the tone scale and make a judgement as to their reliability and trustworthiness if you have a stable datum that they are perfect. It also made it very difficult to be a photographer of women ... I was completely unable to determine what makes a good picture of a woman. To me, ANY picture of a woman was a good picture.

Completely erased.

I could go on and on and on. Dozens of similar, completely silly "truths" no longer trouble me or make it difficult for me to judge and handle the situation.

I feel all bright and shiny and happy. Life looks a lot better, and best of all, I feel like I am now able to judge the situation in front of me better, without some unknown automatic thing causing me to make poor decisions and get upset for no apparent reason.

Success Story

2008-02-03T21:21:13Z

Today I had some incredible gains.

First and foremost, I found the reasons why I have not been able to create the kind of relationship with a woman which I desire. You know, a caring relationhip, in-ethics with an equal partner who is really interested. I've been married, and she was a wonderful lady (now deceased), and I've wanted to create another relationship wth someone but have found myself, for whatever reason, just deciding it wasn't time.

It is now time. The many reasons why not have been erased forever. The excuses are gone. It is now time to find a lady who wants to have a relationship with me.

Various aches and pains disappeared forever. Several mild chronic conditions are gone.

I had one of the most fantastic wins ever. I was determined to get something handled. Something that had been bugging me for a long time (and I mean a long time). Something that had to be handled.

That something, and it was huge, is now fully handled. Gone, erased forever. The relief I feel is tremendous, completely indescribable. I do not have the words, in fact I do not think the words exist, to describe how incredible it feels to be rid of this burden. Until now, it was something that I didn't believe was possible to handle, and now it's gone. Completely erased.

Upgrading to Crusader

2006-12-29T21:43:04Z

Every single year, just before the new year, I sit down and think over the events of the previous year. What happened in my life? What was good, what was bad? The purpose is not to focus on anything in particular, but rather to determine what areas of my life need to be reinforced, handled or addressed.

Thus, around the end of 2006, I looked over the events of 2005. My life was shaping up and I was moving in a good, positive, strong direction. I liked the trends that I saw - I was getting out of debt, I was advancing spiritually, my health was looking great and I felt good overall. In addition, I was making many new friends and enjoying getting out into the world and exploring a bit.

As I lengthened my gaze to the rest of the world, things looked less rosy. Yes, I was doing exceptionally well, and even my friends and neighbors were making gains in life, but things seemed to be decaying in society. The further out I moved my gaze, the more prevalent the decay.

My city, Los Angeles, had issues. That much was obvious. Just that day, I walked past a dozen homeless people on the way to the store, all begging for handouts, and all in a hopeless state. Nothing could be done about that, surely?

The newspaper was full of reports of a new education bill, currently being debated in the state legislature. The solution on everyone's mind seemed to be "pour money on it". Billions and billions of dollars were being pushed into the schools, yet California had such a horrible education system that there was talk of eliminating the exit exams because the students couldn't pass them! Obviously, that problem was too big to confront!

During the year, I watched at the situation in Iraq deteriorated beyond belief. Not only were Americans dying, but Muslims were killing Muslims, children and innocents were dying by the thousand, and a once proud country was falling into chaos and anarchy. Surely I couldn't do anything about this?

Hurricanes, tornadoes, global warming, floods and dozens of other disasters affected millions of people all over the planet. These were not just the huge disasters like Katrina, but smaller ones such as mudslides which simply washed away a house or two. I was able to help my sister-in-law after Katrina, but what can a single person do when faced by the wrath of the planet itself?

As I looked back through 2005 I felt the helplessness of it all well up in me. What could I possibly do to help?

The answer came almost immediately. I could give to the IAS (International Association of Scientologists). While there are many thousands of other organizations that give comfort and aid in these situations, the IAS is the only group which can not only help, but can actually work, using the technology provided by L Ron Hubbard, to permanently resolve the ills of humanity.

It was so simple that I couldn't see the answer until that point in time. By aiding my fellow Scientologists with my donations, I could help in more ways than can be imagined.

I can directly fight back against psychiatry (http://www.cchr.org/),
improve learning with the study tech, get people off drugs forever, and eliminate criminality (http://www.able.org/),
aid in giving businesses technology for doing business that actually works (http://www.wise.org/),
help send volunteer ministers to where they are needed (http://www.volunteerministers.org/),
work towards human rights (http://www.youthforhumanrights.org/),
and help people with their drug problems (http://www.drugfreeworld.org/)

Thus, in December of 2005, I decided to plan on upgrading my IAS membership from Lifetime to Crusader. This allows me to give directly to the one organization which can help my friends and family, my city, my state, my country and my planet.

And now, at the end of 2006, I have completed that goal. I have acheived the level of Crusader. If I had known how good this would feel, to be actually able to provide help in a way that actually does help, I would have done so long ago.

Christmas on LRH Way

2006-12-29T21:29:43Z

Improving my Professional abilities

2006-10-18T18:17:00Z

I spent the last two weeks receiving counseling at the Church of Scientology in Clearwater, Florida. I traveled across the country in order to improve my abilities in the areas of creativity and my profession. I wanted to concentrate specifically on my writing skills, art and the creation of web sites.

After the counseling was complete, my abilities were improved so much that it is difficult to describe. Writing has become natural, almost an extension of my own self, so effortless that it's a joy. In the past, I've written hundreds of stories, articles and other materials, but never has it seemed to fulfulling. In the days since my counseling, I just cannot wait to sit down in front of my computer terminal and write something, anything, to communicate the knowledge and feelings that just seem to burst out from my very soul.

I've always enjoyed writing and creating, but these days all of the barriers have dissolved. The phenomenon of "writer's block" no longer exists for me; these days, I just sit down, look into space and the words just flow from my fingers. Not only do the words flow fast and furious, but they flow correctly and without the need of serious editing and rewrites.

My confidence in my own writing and creative abilities has rocketed up to the top of the sky. Whereas in the past I had a reluctance to share my creations with others, now I can hardly wait to get my works out into the world to be viewed and read.

As if that wasn't enough, my skills in the area of photography improved by several orders of magnitude. I could always snap a picture, and those pictures would come out anywhere from "okay" to "excellent", but they were lacking some sort of magic. Today when I take pictures, they are much more perfectly composed, much closer to what I wanted to present, and the act of photography is far more effortless and fun than ever before.

Finally, I've always enjoyed my job and working with my peers. However, after receiving this counseling, I understand that I love my career and truly enjoy working with people. I have now matured, in just two weeks, from a computer geek who also manages people to a responsible, intelligent, caring leader who can get done whatever needs to get done.

The Color of a Woman's Eyes

2007-03-14T19:57:05Z

Three days ago I after receiving counseling at my local Scientology church, I walked through the building and stopped in front of the receptionist. I looked at her and suddenly recoiled. Wow! I saw her. For the first time in my life, I realized that I could see a woman. You can imagine my reaction. I almost fell over. The poor girl noticed my reaction and said “what?”, but I couldn’t explain so I just stared. She probably thought I was being rude. But I wasn’t, it’s just that I could really see her.

I could see her eye color, the pupil, her skin, her hair. For the first time ever. I know that sounds strange, but allow me to explain. I could, of course, see woman and other people. However, now I understand that my vision actually stopped short of the person. It was as if I was focusing on a spot a millimeter from their body instead of right at their body.

I spent the last three days walking around and looking at people, especially women. Do you know that women have different eye colors? They have pours on their skin? Hell, they have skin. I now know what a dimple is, and I never knew that hair could look so, well, hairy.

Even more scary, I didn’t realize women have three dimensions.

Colors of women are more vibrant.

My wife has passed away and I don’t even know what color eyes she had. I have no idea. Oh, her driver’s license says “brown” but I could not tell you that from my own experience.

I could not see them.

I remember even one occasion, years ago, when somehow the subject of eye color came up and I couldn’t tell her what color eyes she had. She was upset, let me tell you. And even though I made a point of looking, I still could not see her eye color.

Now, if she was still alive, I could.

My vision has not changed one bit. My perception has changed. Big time. I gained something that I didn't even know I was missing.

How’s that for a win?