I finished a major action today. Just to give you some examples of the wins...

 

I had the idea that anyone who was trying to help me is an enemy. Automatically. So when someone said, "I want to help" or "we're helping ..." my reaction was exactly what you would expect ... if the person was an enemy. It made it real difficult for me to accept help from anyone, and even more difficult to give help. I'm sure you can imagine the results of some normal communications. Now, I see them as humorous ... at the time, they were very upsetting.

 

Gone.

 

Did you know women are the perfect creatures? Every woman is absolute perfection. Did this cause me trouble? You bet. It's very difficult to properly place someone on the tone scale and make a judgement as to their reliability and trustworthiness if you have a stable datum that they are perfect. It also made it very difficult to be a photographer of women ... I was completely unable to determine what makes a good picture of a woman. To me, ANY picture of a woman was a good picture.

 

Completely erased.

 

I could go on and on and on. Dozens of similar, completely silly "truths" no longer trouble me or make it difficult for me to judge and handle the situation.

 

 

I feel all bright and shiny and happy. Life looks a lot better, and best of all, I feel like I am now able to judge the situation in front of me better, without some unknown automatic thing causing me to make poor decisions and get upset for no apparent reason.